Feeling a bit neorotic!

Haven’t sold any jewelery this week so thats making me a bit antsy
my joints are really sore
it’s my ex’s birthday
feeling exceptionally fat - due to the fat that my friend touched my belly while we were out grocery shopping and said to me as I reached for something on the shelf “do you really need that”
I’m blaming the moon at the moment for me feeling all jumbled up

because you all need some comedy

Dear Valentine
Your a barhard and I’m well aware of your flaws but love you for them anyway. Your sleezy underhand ways just make me laugh. Don’t bother sending me any ferking flowers because it doesn’t show thought just shows you have a credit card
you know what I really need (get your mind out of the gutter guys) so get yourself down to the shop and get me them
lots of love fb
PS don’t expect a card

because sex is easy its relationships that are hard

I don’t re post my original journal was a place for me to throw my chaotic thoughts as I struggled to comprehend what I had survived! Some of it funny some of it tragic.
Loupy Lou was there from the beginning along with the cowboy then joined by Ladylove (followed by my real life friend doggy blog who is heading off to Sweden on business this week she’s going to send me a post card yippee I love postcards and I haven’t been to Sweden for donkeys years).
Some of you will remember me fitting 12 dates in one week - my advice is coffee cocktails and dinner thats 3 of them over in less then 6 hours if you plan right
others will remember the poetry
and the house reno’s
oh and the joys of being social phobic and then having to stand up every day for weeks on end and give a talk to rooms full of people (angry people who the company is making me tell them something really bad thats going to affect all of them but having to put a really positive spin on it)
and Sammi well Sammi remembers me posting really odd food pic’s from what ever country I was in at the time.
Most of all I didn’t keep any of my stuff - the journals are my way of getting rid of it all.

I’m in one of my pondering moods
forgive me for being quiet
I’m missing something
theres a yearning
for crumbs and laughter and the clink of ice in a glass
while looking out onto the beyond

out there somewhere paddinton bear is waking up and feeling like shet! not from drinking but from a dose of the flu (got to be a first time for everything huh)

its ok todays a public holiday turn over go back to sleep

yes folks its Australia day where our cousins get back to their roots don their budgiesmugglers crack open a few tinnies and hurl abuse at each other . . . darn I wish it was a public holiday here!!

another one of those WTF moments . .  this was the reply I got when I sent a message to someone that was trying to friend me! all I sent was a note saying wrong person

hi,
this is all you can know about me,i live in florida,my dad is dead and my mum is dead,i spend my vacation in my beach house,am the only child in my family,am a christain,yes i believe in love and internet dating because my friend got married to his wife through internet dating and they re happily married till now,yes am single,my exgirl friend cheat on me with my best friend,i want to have kids,i think you the woman i want to spend the rest of my life with in marriage and a happy life,i love watching movies,i will say yes to marriage with you,i want to come to see you and your family someday,i want to have  a wife this year,hope you know all about me now.
     i really seems to be very busy knowing the nature of my job as oil contractor and a scientist,i spend my time on work and construction sites and creating more refineries for oil supply.i drove my first plane at the age of 12years and i have constructed  automobile and robot machines.
     i am an orphan i neither have a father nor  a mother,i live my life with no family i grew up saudi charity organisation to suport the less previledge kids,i suffered and i cried daily cos i did not see the happiness of a family and the special love from a mum to her child,i have never withness or been in a family where they re mother,father and brothers,i grew up with complete strangers.i have search and look for a good wife that can build me a family so i can begin to experience family love and feel what i lost in my child hood,if the rain could stop falling as you wish without a flood then my heart could stop loving you without the rain in my eyes,so many love with flood that brings me heart brake,i announce to the world that am getting married to a woman but i flew to canada to see her but she is married,and she told me she is single on internet,why do all women re never faithful to me.
         i love my mum so much that i play with her,cook for her and help her washes re dishes even at my age.we have maids but i prefer doing her jobs for her my self without the help of the maids,when ever my mum feel lonely i always keep re happy,sing for her and take her to the beach side.i love to take care of my wife like i took  good care of my mum before she past away,I am the only child of my parents and my parents died some years back;I am orphan. i miss my mum and i cried everynight for her departure, this was a painful situation which i don’t like talking much about,i have no family of my own,i miss the smiles in the face of my mum and i know where ever she is in heaven she will be praying for me  cos before  mum died she was worried about me before she died,she want me to get married this year and have a family of my own and kids. she told me to always believe in GOD that there is a good woman out there for me,that will love me and stand for me all her life.they were missionaries before they passed away. And my greatest happiness is my daughter (miriam)she is all i have got now,that why am working so hard to make her happy.my wife cheated on me with my bestfriend and she left miriam and i lonely,every night i feel sad that i have not goten true love from a true wife,, .
I’m searching for a new life,new love,new family with a lady that will make me happy for the rest of my life. I have really missed being loved. I need to settle down with a new family because am hoping to retire soon from my job and have time for my new family if things work out with the new lady that comes my way.i hope you have known about me now.NAS

so anyone one else feeling dizzy yet???